so....Im single...yes...I...am...I was really upset at God for a while for my whole "love life" situation. I was fine a few months ago...single and happy...then I meet someone...at church..he was great and we start dating. I thought God was telling me that this was right for me then a month later he breaks up with me saying he cant commit. So I am crushed and sad and now back in the "I need a guy" phase of my life when a few months ago I wasnt. I was mad at God for letting this happen to me. I was confused as to why I couldnt have never even met him and then I would still be in the single and happy phase. I just got back from a friends wedding. It was beautiful. I met up with a lot of friends from home who needless to say are NOT single and are constantly talking about the guy in their life. I tried not to let satan get in and make me mad at God again. This time I wasnt mad...Im learning. I know that through all of this God is trying to teach me to lean on him and not on guys...they are not what I need..he is. Its still hard when 5 of my friends from home go back and forth with Joe is so sweet....Mike and I are planning to get married after we graduate...I feel like Tim is the one for me...and I just sit there and cant relate. I know that God is teaching me and Im getting better about it but its still really hard to be single. I will not say alone because He is with me always..but I am single. Praise God for his teachings even if I dont understand them all of the time.

Chuck E. Cheese was really fun. I went with Joy and Ryan. We played the games and kept on getting tickets, were having a great time. Then a little boy comes up to me and asks me if I have any tokens...I say I do...then he hands out 1 ticket...1 TICKET! just ONE! as if I would trade with him!!! umm yeah I felt bad so I did. I KNOW I KNOW...I got sucked into his cute-ness. So yeah I had a fair trade of 1 token for 1 ticket haha. Kids these days...sneaky sneaky...

Ok...here I go.

   This weekend I hung out with tasha...it was alright. last weekend was better but still it was fun. We went to a punk/skin head party for the first time in our lives. At first we were kind of hesitant because we are not used to that environment and have never really been about punk before. It was so fun though. The people were so very nice and welcoming. They all were so funny and helped us to have a good time. I saw Rickie Ashton for the first time after a long time and talked to him for the first time. He is so sexy when he plays...but enough about that. Tasha and I left to the club after that again....wow we are not going there for a long time I hope. We spent 15 dollars each to get in and 0 dollars of our money was spent well. But Tasha had been eyeing a guy who works there and she would not talk to him. I told her to for the longest time and ten finally she went up to him and wrote her name and number on his hand. I hope he calls her. They would be so good together I think. Well till next weekend. I hope you all have a great week. Oyasumi!